NatASHa fUad'S

Sunday, January 30, 2011

i dont think im gonna leave behind our stories...



waitin' at the buz stop,,
i shivered 4m the cold,,
when u walked up it seemed as if u were outlined all in gold,,
u askd me if my shiverin' was out of cold or fear,,
i said the cold,im not afraid,,
for u 2 stand so near,,
then u removed ur jacket n handed it 2 me,,
i shyly refused ur jacket,,
embrassed so,u see,,
u put the jacket on my shoulders and back a step u took,,
"im natasha"i said extending my hands,,
when u said ur name,we shook,
,day after day we stood,waitin' 4 the bus,not a single word spoken by either one of us,,
until 1 day i turned 2 u n bravely started 2 say,"i av a crush on u,n also, by the way-",,
as i started 2 tell u wut it wus dat wus burnin' on my mind,,
u told me dat u liked me 2,,
but the words were hard 2 find,,
i smiled a smile dat seemd  2 stretch 2 both of my 2 ears,,,,
the smilin' n the happiness erasin' al my fears..
n now,,my fren,u're dyin' n there's nothin' i can do,,
but sit wif u n hold ur hand n b 4eva true,,
last nyte when u were sleepin',ur soul juz slippd away,,
the many words that filled my heart were impossibble 2 say,,
as i wus cleanin' out the drawer that stood beside ur empty bed,,
i found a letter addressed 2 me,,
n heard ur voice speak as i read,,


MY DARLING IM SORY DAT I WILL HAVE 2 LEAVE U,,U KNOW HOW MUCH I LUV U N I KNOW U LUV ME 2,,I HOPE U WONT 4GET ME,,BUT PLEASE DO TRY 2 MOVE ON,,I HOPE U WONT CRY 2 MUCH WHEN IM DEAD N GONE,,
2 silent tears slide down my face n moistened both my cheeks,,
i wont get over the loss of u,,
not for days not for weeks,,
i continued readin' the letter that i held in both my hands,,
my fingers numb as if they had been wrapped in rubber bands,,
now im standin' at the bus stop,,
where 2 years ago we met,,
as i stand here in the cold i feel my cheecks start 2 get wet,,
i dont think i will get 2 over u..
neva not in any way,,
our anniversary would have been 2 years ago 2day,,
n on dis lonely bus ride,,
i sit alone without u near,,
i hear a voice that may jus b the voice  i av longed 2 hear,,
the voice is from an angel and his words r sweet n strong,,
he tells me LIFE'S A TREASURE,,LEARN 2 LOVE AGAIN..MOVE ON,,
n through the words he whispers  i finally start 2 see,,
dat although i will always luv u,,its time 2 set u free,,,

Saturday, January 29, 2011

oh yeah???

and now i knew y asasian used panda as their profil pix!!
yeah its great!!!!
P/S:PANDAI PANDA2 KAT SINI PATOT LA MASOK PASUM,,,HAHAHAHAH



                                                                              P.A.S.U.M
                                                         P:PANDA
                                                         A:ASET
                                                         S:SEMULAJADI
                                                         U:UNIVERSITY
                                                         M:MALAYA


power an??
mmg klakar gle ble page ktrg PASUM 2010/2011 gune panda theme ney,,,pergh!!!!
jom samboot seruan WE LOVE PANDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Friday, January 28, 2011

friendship???does it true??or just a word??im wonderin' mode,,

Who's That Chick lyrics

Feel the adrenaline
Moving under my skin
It's an addiction
Such an eruption 

Sound is my remedy
Feeding me energy
Music is all I need

Baby I just wanna dance
I don't really care
I just wanna dance
I don't really care.. care.. care

(Feel it in the air... yeah yeah)

She's been a crazy dicta
Disco diva.. and you wonder
Who's that chick? who's that chick?
Too cold for you to keep her
Too hot for you to leave her
Who's that chick? who's that chick? (x3)

Back on the dancefloor
Bad enough to take me home
Base kicking so hard
Blazing through my beating heart
French kissing on the floor
Heart is beating hardcore

Err-body's getting a little tipsy
On the crazy juice
This will end up in the news

Baby I just wanna dance
I don't really care
I just wanna dance
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/r/rihanna-lyrics/who_s-that-chick-lyrics.html ]
I don't really care.. care.. care

(Feel it in the air.. yeah)

She's been a crazy dicta
Disco diva.. and you wonder
Who's that chick? who's that chick?
Too cold for you to keep her
Too hot for you to leave her
Who's that chick? who's that chick?

Ultrasexual
The night has got me love sprung
I won't stop until the sun is up oh yeah
My heart is a dancer beating like a disco drum
Oh oh uh oh

Ultrasexual
The night has got me love sprung
I won't stop until the sun is up oh yeah
My heart is a dancer beating like a disco drum
Beating like a disco drum.. beating like a disco drum..

She's been a crazy dicta
Disco diva.. and you wonder
Who's that chick? who's that chick?
Too cold for you to keep her
Too hot for you to leave her
Who's that chick? who's that chick? (x3)


insomnia,,,

"alahai,,,xkanla smpy tue nak jd mcm ney,,,,mis tasha,,,tdola,,,xkan nak kene dodoi,,,
awk bkn on9 sgt pon,,,mcm ne nak sng tdo ek??"my heart beats saying dat,,,hahahahah













p yg aq pelik nye,,,tyme exam nantok lak,,,2 yg tahan 2,,,nmpak sgt aq mmg malas an??
hoho,,
p xtau la,,,ble nak stdy je mesty mate nak lelap,,,nta,,,ble lapar xnantok,,ble nak ngumpat xnantok,,hohoho
byk lak dose aq an??
aq bosan la,,,nak layan fb skunk,,mcm xsyok da,,maybe im getting bored kot,,,,plus,fb skunk da xbesh function nye,,,btol x??
i HATE my new profil page on fb,,,its truely ugly,,huh!!!



You say that I'm messing with your head
All 'cause I was making out with your friend
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong 
I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?

So what if I go out on a million dates
You never call or listen to me anyway
I rather rage than sit around and wait all day
Don't get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay




You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy


All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell



You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)
You can save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell 



this tells u all my sadness,,yup,,my page,,

im not 2 emotional,,,im not a good writer as im not a GOOD BLOGGER,,but at least,,i need space 4 me 2 write or throw out all my pains,,,=(
im not 2 greedy 2 have all i want,,im not a goodfren as im not an angel,,,im not dat popular 2 make u satisfy 4 u 2 think who u r!!!ok??!!,,,im just me,,,im an ordinary person,,looking 4 forgveness when i made mistakes,,but y people be fren wif me just 2 take advantages on me??? im trying 2 tell dat is not everyone,,,but theres several of mine,,,y huh??ok?
i failed in stdy,,,
i failed in love,,,
i failed in being a good fren,,,
i failed 2 be kind 4 my siblings,,,
n i failed in everthings!!!
y!!
y!!!






could sum1 step forward n be my guide???
im totally sick enough with all this sadness,,
i need strength 2 say dat I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



is dat true???
arrrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hate it damn much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!








aaarrrggghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


tension la!!!!
asal exam td mcm ****!!!!


aq ase aq AGAK membace kot,,tensen la,,,soklan susah sgt,,,p,bkn aq je bsungut,,,ramey,,aq mmg la xsehebat mane,,,p stil gak ase tensen,,mcm  ne grab 4 rate ney??salu stdy pon result truk gak,,,p paper smlam an fizik n kimia 4,,,aq sedyh sgt,,nape nta,,,aq try nak stdy p mcm xmasok,,,alih2,aq tutup buku trus tdo,,,bgon p lak lmbat,,,naseb bek la besties aq msg ajak mkn,,,sian an???








seyesly,,mg kecewa tahap gaban sgt,,,pastu td lak engineering math aq mcm gampang,,,ley lak lupe formula,,,aq bkn nak salah kan dak2 hayat la,,,p membe aq sniri sian ngan dak2 fizikal,,,kowg bace je,,,ktrg kene kire2,,,dala yg ktrang blaja ney sud tahun 1 n 2 fakulti;;;kdg2 aq ase asal aq tpilih duk kat um ney,,,aq bkn panday pon even kturunan aq mmg asal ramey dr sini,,,aq ase down sgt ble smpy sini,,,maybe nie hikmah tuhan nak tunjuk kat aq,,,stdy kat malaysia pon susah,,kat tmpat org mcm ne??
yg blah 2,maybe ade klebihan yg aq xde,,,aq ase sedyh sjak aq masuk 18 ney,,aq nak jd kanak2 lagi,,,=(





ble msok um je,,aq cannot go la,,,result saban arie makin trok,,,kwn mmg ramey,,p dowg xtau pe yg aq ase,,aq ske pendam,,aq salu ngan dunia aq,,aq bency ngn  aq yg skrg ney,,,aq nak benty blaja p aq kot nak ckp ka parens aq,,,dorg pasang arapan yg tinggi kat aq,,,penah dlu ble membe2 aq sume mcig n kol aq bg smgat kat aq ok trus blaja,,,aq ngaku la,,sejak dri dlu mmg aq salu lebeh d dak2 kawasan umah aq,,,aq la yg g agak joh kalu blaja,,,p xbermakne aq ske blaja!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


SILALAH PAHAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




aq anak 1st,,jd harapan kluarge,,p,aq mmg xnak stdy,,mcm ney???
aq ade pilihan aq,,,aq engat ag tyme aq nak apply pilot,,abah xbg,,,abah kate xde mse dpn,,aq xphm pe maksud abah xde mase dpn,,,tyme aq 16 dlu,,ble aq dpt tawaran sbp,,abah n mama epy sgt p ble tau aliran aq apply,,tros abah marah,,,"asal pilih ne??!ape yg ko nak wat ble besa t??
abah da kate amik sains tulen,,,zah,ney la anak awk,,,ble sye ckp atau nasihat awk bising,,,ape yg dye wt,,,soh blaja pon susah sgt,,dui sume cuup!!!"
ape kowg ase ble ade kat tmpat aq??
ye,,mmg aq xnak amik bio,,,aq bency blaja,,,aq bency membace,,aq  ske calculation,,abah paham la,,,aq nak jd sape dri aq,,,aq bkn anak raje,,,aq bkn pm,,aq anak abah,,,mama salu sokong abah,,,aq au tyme aq sibok daftar pon,,abah mmg mcm xske aq amik aliran 2,,
aq enjoy je,,,
nape kalu jd engineer,,xde mase dpn ke???
kalu jd dokter dpt dpt kawen ngan anak raje ke???
huh!


ya allah,,,kau tenangkanlah hatiku yg dlm gelisah ney,,aq nak kan yg terbaik uk mama n abah,,p aq salu gagal mlakukan ape yg mereka inginkan,,,
nape ya allah??
adekah aq blum cukup mgerti erti jase???
aq tau mustahil uk aq mbalas jase mereka,,,xkaN penah tmampu aq mbalas ya allah,,,cume kau berikanlah ktabahan pd aq tok trus yakin bjalan ke hadapan dan myakinkn kluarga aq pilihan aq adelah dri aq,,,
ameenn