aaarrrggghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tension la!!!!

asal exam td mcm ****!!!!

aq ase aq AGAK membace kot,,tensen la,,,soklan susah sgt,,,p,bkn aq je bsungut,,,ramey,,aq mmg la xsehebat mane,,,p stil gak ase tensen,,mcm  ne grab 4 rate ney??salu stdy pon result truk gak,,,p paper smlam an fizik n kimia 4,,,aq sedyh sgt,,nape nta,,,aq try nak stdy p mcm xmasok,,,alih2,aq tutup buku trus tdo,,,bgon p lak lmbat,,,naseb bek la besties aq msg ajak mkn,,,sian an???

seyesly,,mg kecewa tahap gaban sgt,,,pastu td lak engineering math aq mcm gampang,,,ley lak lupe formula,,,aq bkn nak salah kan dak2 hayat la,,,p membe aq sniri sian ngan dak2 fizikal,,,kowg bace je,,,ktrg kene kire2,,,dala yg ktrang blaja ney sud tahun 1 n 2 fakulti;;;kdg2 aq ase asal aq tpilih duk kat um ney,,,aq bkn panday pon even kturunan aq mmg asal ramey dr sini,,,aq ase down sgt ble smpy sini,,,maybe nie hikmah tuhan nak tunjuk kat aq,,,stdy kat malaysia pon susah,,kat tmpat org mcm ne??

yg blah 2,maybe ade klebihan yg aq xde,,,aq ase sedyh sjak aq masuk 18 ney,,aq nak jd kanak2 lagi,,,=(

ble msok um je,,aq cannot go la,,,result saban arie makin trok,,,kwn mmg ramey,,p dowg xtau pe yg aq ase,,aq ske pendam,,aq salu ngan dunia aq,,aq bency ngn  aq yg skrg ney,,,aq nak benty blaja p aq kot nak ckp ka parens aq,,,dorg pasang arapan yg tinggi kat aq,,,penah dlu ble membe2 aq sume mcig n kol aq bg smgat kat aq ok trus blaja,,,aq ngaku la,,sejak dri dlu mmg aq salu lebeh d dak2 kawasan umah aq,,,aq la yg g agak joh kalu blaja,,,p xbermakne aq ske blaja!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SILALAH PAHAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aq anak 1st,,jd harapan kluarge,,p,aq mmg xnak stdy,,mcm ney???

aq ade pilihan aq,,,aq engat ag tyme aq nak apply pilot,,abah xbg,,,abah kate xde mse dpn,,aq xphm pe maksud abah xde mase dpn,,,tyme aq 16 dlu,,ble aq dpt tawaran sbp,,abah n mama epy sgt p ble tau aliran aq apply,,tros abah marah,,,"asal pilih ne??!ape yg ko nak wat ble besa t??

abah da kate amik sains tulen,,,zah,ney la anak awk,,,ble sye ckp atau nasihat awk bising,,,ape yg dye wt,,,soh blaja pon susah sgt,,dui sume cuup!!!"

ape kowg ase ble ade kat tmpat aq??

ye,,mmg aq xnak amik bio,,,aq bency blaja,,,aq bency membace,,aq  ske calculation,,abah paham la,,,aq nak jd sape dri aq,,,aq bkn anak raje,,,aq bkn pm,,aq anak abah,,,mama salu sokong abah,,,aq au tyme aq sibok daftar pon,,abah mmg mcm xske aq amik aliran 2,,

aq enjoy je,,,

nape kalu jd engineer,,xde mase dpn ke???

kalu jd dokter dpt dpt kawen ngan anak raje ke???

huh!

ya allah,,,kau tenangkanlah hatiku yg dlm gelisah ney,,aq nak kan yg terbaik uk mama n abah,,p aq salu gagal mlakukan ape yg mereka inginkan,,,

nape ya allah??

adekah aq blum cukup mgerti erti jase???

aq tau mustahil uk aq mbalas jase mereka,,,xkaN penah tmampu aq mbalas ya allah,,,cume kau berikanlah ktabahan pd aq tok trus yakin bjalan ke hadapan dan myakinkn kluarga aq pilihan aq adelah dri aq,,,

ameenn