woooowww!!

it was soooooo awesome!!!!!

today i bought my first contact lenses,,haha

it was scary when i tried 2 wear them for the first time,,

my lenses are sweetie purple and i think they suit me well,,hhihi

im sleepy,,nyte!! 

natasha was in happy mood today,,thank you Allah,,,

=)

something goes wrong today,,,i get period pain,,its so critical,,

i had stomachache..

and out of the blue,,i was thinking bout my childhood,,

i do miss my school mates,,

my besties,,,

we kept hanging out together,,but now,,all r busy with part time jobs,,

then i realised,,people r growing up,,

even getting better or bad,,

people n environment r changing,,

people wont do the same thing,,

people wanna make everything enjoyable,,

n now im wondering,,how could i reach the new world..

faculty life,,working life,,OMG!!

this puzzles me!!

i dont wanna grow up,,

bcause i am 2 worried if i couldnt handle everything when i grew up,,

its definitely different,,

do i deserves loves from a guy who willingly loves me for who i am??

i wanna get married before i reach 30,,

its scary me a lot,,

GOD,,please gimme some bless,,,

AMEEN~~~

PUHH!!

zam zam alakazam!!!

go away!

hahahhh

=P

im fall in love again!!!!

i want it!!!

<3<3<3<3

kan best kalau org yg kte minat tau kte minat kat dye???

hm??

p,,mcm mane kalu org yg kte minat 2 dah bpunye??

xmcm terhegeh2 ke??

mcm ne kalau kte yg ske kat org 2 dlu n kte yg knl org yg kte ske 2 lbih lame dr gf dye??

perlu ke kte musnah kan phubungan dye??

perlu ke??

i dont think so,,

p,,ble pendam,,,it hurts a lot lorh,,,=(

sape kate kalu tpu perasaan kte xkan ape2???

who says!!!!

sakit atie la,,,=(

sgt2!!

ariney aq sedyh sgt,,patotlah abah blik keje lambat ariney,,

naseb baik ade org yg kol umah,,

mmg sgt mnyedihkan ble dpt kol yg mnyatekan abah accident n skunk d anta ke hospital slayang,,

ble tamat je kol,,mama trus nangis,,aq pon nangis gak,,

aq hampir pengsan ble dpt tau abah accident n keadaan nye truk,,

abah kene langgar keta,,

xtaula langgar lari ke ape,,

sbb abah je yg masuk hospital,,

ble aq tnye nurse keta yg langgar abah mane,,dowg xtau,,sbb kami trime pesakit (abah) je yg masuk ke wad kecemasan,,

ya allah,,aq harap nie bkn kes langgar lari,,

kalu btol skalipon mmg abah kene langgar,,aq nak kan keadilan,,

abah patah kaki n tgn kiri,,

ble aq masok wad kecemasan ngan mama td nak jenguk abah,,

aq trus menangis ble nmpak bju abah penuh ngan darah,,

tgn n kaki kiri abah berbalut,,,

pemeriksaan awal kate abah xcedera bahagian mane2 slain tgn n kaki kiri,,

papehal pon,kene tgu result dr doc pakar,,

td abah sedar,,sian abah sbb dr tghari xmakan nasik lg,,

abah lapar n haus,,

abah mintak minum p nurse xbg,,

nurse soh puase,,

aq trus nanges lg sbb aq xmampu tahan sebak dlm dada aq,,

mama suh kami adik bradik blik umah dlu,,naseb baik ade wan,nenek,andak n pakngah yg bwak kami ke hospital,,

mama xbrani bwk keta sbb mama still terkejut nan berita ney,,

ble smpay umah td,,mama kol nenek kate mlm ney gak abah kene operate sbb tulang kat lutut abah patah n xbetul,,

ade tulang kat kaki kiri abah terkeluar,,

aq hanye mampu bdoa utk abah,,

along syg abah,,

tanx sbb abah kerja utk tggung kami anak branak,,

along salu doakan kesejahteraan abah,,amin,,

wow!!!

its tiring me lorh!!!!

but,at least i have fun today,,

working at new place gives my inspiration 2 try something new,,

actually,,i was very nervous n thought i might cannot adapt myself with new environment n among new people,,

but my thought was wrong,,

today i learnt many new thing,,

i learnt how 2 top up fon num,,

i trained myself 2 promote broadband,,

celcom n maxis,,

im becoming a promoter!!!

i learnt new model of branded fon like sony erricsons,nokia,samsung,blackberry,iphone,,

wow!!!

its totally awesome ma!!!!

im gonna sleep now!!!

preparing myself 4 work again tomorrow!!

nyte!!!!

<3<3<3<3<3

its fine natasha,,

dy jeles ngan awk je,

sbb awk is better than her,,hihiii

=)

SECRET GARDEN,,,

Done!!!!
yeah!!!!!!

<3<3<3<3<3<3

sory 4 making ur pix as my lappy background,,

because i dont think i might live without seeing ur face even a sec,,

im so so so sorry,,,

I have blocked ur fb,,

i dont want 2 know n stare ur wall anymore,,

i hate myself because i love u so much,,

its fine untill here,,

i will b fine without u,,

FULLSTOP,,

i always do everything dat i hate the most,,

because i know,,u like doing everything dat i hate,,

this makes me love u so much,,

ok,,i privated my fb,,,everything on my fb,,,exception for my wall,,

everyone can view mine,,

but people cant add me as their fren,,

sory,,,

i made this on my purpose,,,

i was 2 unhappy because of some1 that i did really love since i was 13,,

i admired him,,

i added his fb for more than 10++ times,,,

but he didnt approve mine,,

what was my mistake??

did he know i admired him??
did he hate 4 who i am?

its fine if u dont like me,,

but let me know,,

it hurts me at all,,

tanx 4 not privating ur wall,,

at least i could stare ur wall,,

looking at ur posts,,

making me sad lonely,,

i have put u at the highest place in my heart,,

but u showed me u didnt deserve it,,

sorry,,,

im trying 2 love people i hate the most,,

i made such a big mistake knowing u when we ever met,,

i didnt know y u must betrayed our friendship,,,

did i give u lack of love??

i didnt think so,,because i loved u the most among our frens,,

but y,,

y u did this 2 me??

tell me y,,

u be fren with me just because u wanted anything that i belonged ryte??

sory,,i hate 2 hear everything about u now,,

if 1day,,u came 2 me n seeking 4 my forgiveness,

i would give u then,,

but, i would say,,

"u r forgiven,,but 2 b like bfore,,i wont,,

its enough when meeting u we just say hi n bubye..

2 hang out n sharing story like b4,,it wont happen,,bcause im 2 afraid everything about u"

aduyai,,makin sket idung aq,,nak tgu time appoinment lame ag,,sengal tol,,,xdkire emergency case ke huh??

idung aq ney mcm nak tercabut da,,,sket yg amat,,,makin besar lak tu ketulan kat dlm idung aq ney,,

ya ALLAH,,tabahkanlah hati aq nie,,,aq bdoa tiada yg boleh memudaratkan ksihatan aq,,,

shhhuuuuuuuuuuuuu........................

dont say anything because i would cry,,

im happy for who i am,,,

im pretty just in my way,,

tanx 4 saying dat im unwritten because i myself love me for who i am,,

=)